“When you feel lost or apprehensive, look up at the stars in the sky and imagine yourself flying freely amongst them. Take a deep breath, close your eyes, and make a wish. When you’re done, maybe you’ll feel better and happier and just that bit more confident and ready to face life head-on.”
他不会读心术, 不过总为人着想, 不时在媒体方面, 台前幕后等配合我, 保护我。记得有一次的颁奖典礼, 所有艺人必须上台向观众道别。他知道我最害怕穿着高跟鞋上台时跌倒, 即使他当时的座位是在大厅的另外一边, 他还是特地走到我的旁边, 牵着我的手并和我一起上台。
我们俩有着倔强固执的性格; 虽然他不会处处迁就我, 我也会坚持着自己的想法, 但是我很珍惜自己能够这么坦然地, 毫无保留地面对他。
- As do I, and I love you too
“Good job everyone! Let’s take five before filming the next segment!” The PD announced to the Running Man cast and crew. Gary swiftly unclipped his mic and sauntered towards his car, intending to grab the herbal tea he had prepared in the morning.
“Kang Gary! Wait for me!” Gary turned towards the familiar voice, his heart leaping at the sight of Ji-hyo rushing towards him.
“I see you couldn’t stand being away from me for too long after all, huh?” he smirked as she caught up with him and looped her hand through the crook of his arm.
“No, I didn’t want you to feel cold without me,” Ji-hyo grinned cheekily and held his hand tightly, interlocking her fingers with his.
There was a mischievous glint in Gary’s eyes as he suddenly stopped and pulled Ji-hyo into his embrace, then effortlessly swept her up in his arms and resumed walking to his car.
“Hey, Kang Gary, put me down! Everyone’s watching!” Ji-hyo protested, trying to stop him.
“Weren’t you worried about me being cold? I feel much warmer carrying you this way,” Gary chortled in return, holding her more securely. You must also be exhausted from playing that hellish game, he thought silently.
Soon after, they reached his car. Gary gently placed Ji-hyo on the passenger seat then reached for the hot flasks he had left in the drinks holder and handed one to her.
“Drink up, beautiful. I don’t want you falling sick in this weather. Oh, and this is for you. It might help in relieving your insomnia these days.” Gary tried to sound nonchalant as he passed a package to her, but his pulse quickened when Ji-hyo gasped in recognition, looking visibly touched. Before he had a chance to pull away, Ji-hyo leant forward and hugged him tightly, then kissed him on the cheek.
“I love you, Kang Gary, but you already know that, don’t you? I’m really lucky to have you.”
“As do I, and I love you too.”
Into an abyss.
The point of no return.
A better tomorrow.
- The prelude
BGI: Gary & Ji-hyo on a coffee run amidst filming for Running Man
“I would love to know what’s going on in that gorgeously mysterious head of yours.” Gary had an uncanny ability in reading people well. However, try as he might, Ji-hyo remained as inscrutable to him as she had always been. He couldn’t gaze deep into her soul as he could for most people.
“The same can be said about you,” Ji-hyo retorted. “I don’t know what you’re thinking, always hiding your pain from me. Let me shoulder some of it. Stop trying to protect me from everything.”
“I’m an open book,” he disagreed. “That’s why you, and everyone else, knew how I felt about you even before I acknowledged those feelings.
“You, on the other hand, Mong Ji, are superb at masking your emotions. The only thing that betrayed the slightest hint of your feelings was that habit of yours which no one else knows about.”
“I wanted you to be the first and only one to find out,” she smiled, casually bumping her shoulder against his. “Here’s your caramel macchiato, just the way you like it.”
That was the first thought that came to mind the first time she saw snow.
She raised her head skywards, gazing in awe at the white fluffy flakes falling gently from high above, her fingers trembling slightly as she reached for them.
“It’s the first snowfall of the year. Make a wish, but do not say it aloud if you want it to come true!” she heard a mother telling her child.
Closing her eyes, she clasped her hands together and, as the cool wind kissed her cheeks, wished silently that she would still be here the following year. That she would still be strong enough to resist the pull of the other world.